pharell williams and will ferrell have reverse names
WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
I used to come on here and write long posts about love and how much of an emotional toll it was taking on me before I moved, and then when I moved. I talked about plenty of boyfriends and crushes and exes and whatever boy would come my way. And then I think within the last 6 months or so my posts about relationships has slowed down; and it’s because I realized I don’t need the comfort of the internet or the catharsis I feel after I write a post heavy with emotion, because I’m happy.
Three years ago I had just gotten out of a relationship that I am not proud of. Not because of the person or anything, but mainly because of how I acted. I was so attached, so dependent. I was the exact opposite of an individual. I was unhealthy, mentally, and it grew into a toxic relationship that I needed so desperately and he just couldn’t handle anymore. One year later I found Tanner and in the span of 3 months I could already tell this was everything I wanted.
Two years after meeting Tanner, I just dropped him off at the train station so he can take his overnight 400+ mile trip back home. I want to be there. I want to be home. I am attached to him. But not in the way that I used to be and I am not nearly as unstable. I am in a healthy relationship and what this whole thing has taught me is that as much as I hated who I was, I could never have overcome it without it to be where I am. And if I hadn’t gone through every relationship I have been through I wouldn’t be able to handle the one I’m in now. Time and distance have taught me that it takes confidence in a relationship to work. Something I never had until Tanner. I am grateful to every boy that has fallen for me, and I have fallen for. I will always love the boys who broke my heart, just never be in love with them again. I learned that being in love with someone means being in love with yourself too.
Two years down. Let’s see how many more we go.